Monday, May 21, 2012

Spiritual Formation - Worship Team at The Rock

Time for our very first spiritual formation email! First of all, I wanted to say that I appreciate all of your hard work on the worship team. All of you are very talented, and I am grateful for what you do. Thanks also, for being willing to embark on this journey. I have great expectation of how God is going to work in our lives!
You probably remember us mentioning that there will be 2 weeks of emails, focusing on our desire for God. Last year, I had a moment with Kody (who was 4 at the time) that has stuck with me. We were making a Father's Day card for Brandon, and I asked Kody what he wanted to say to him. He said, "Dad, I want to love you. I love you." I smiled, then he said with great conviction, "No Kimmy, they are different!"
I think that little Kody understands something we all need to. I could ask most Christians if they love God, and most would probably respond with a yes. However, it is very different to ask Christians if they really want to love God more and grow in their relationship with Him. It's easy to stay stagnant in a relationship, but growing in our love for God means that we actively seek Him and want to know Him. He wants to help us desire Him!
Today, please honestly evaluate how much you really want to love God. Think of a scale of 1-10, because it will help you really understand where you are. 1 means you have no desire for God, and 10 means your heart is yearning for Him. I hate rating myself on scales, but it can be eye-opening.
Please allow yourself to be where you are right now. We all go through seasons in our walk with God. If you don't have desire for Him, ask Him in earnest for it and pray for it throughout each day. 'God, give me the desire to love You more' is a prayer that really honors Him. If you have a lot of desire for God, ask Him to help you grow in faithfulness in your relationship with Him.
Revelation 21:6 - He said to me: “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life."

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

A little Tozer...

I have loved reading A.W. Tozer's writings for a long time. I grew up in the Christian and Missionary Alliance, and he had a big impact on that movement. His book Pursuit of God was very instrumental in my life, and I love his frank insights into what it means to follow God and live with love. I saw a meditation of his published in this great book, Apprenticeship with Jesus, by Gary W. Moon that I recently purchased from Renovare. The chapter was on how Christians look and act differently from the world, and Tozer describes this well. I pray it brings encouragement and clarity to you:

A real Christian is an odd number anyway.
He feels supreme love for one whom he has never seen.
He talks familiarly every day to someone he cannot see,
expects to go to heaven on the virtue of another,
empties himself in order that he might be full,
admits he is wrong so he can be declared right,
goes down in order to get up.
He is strongest when he is weakest,
richest when he is poorest,
and happiest when he feels worst.
He dies so he can live,
forsakes in order to have,
gives away so he can keep,
sees the invisible,
hears the inaudible,
and knows that which passeth knowledge.

Saturday, December 25, 2010


Adoration. This is the word I have been dwelling on this Christmas season. I think it's important to engage in the rhythms of the Christian life, and I was trying to figure out a word to really describe what I should enter into this time of year. When I thought of adoration, it clicked.

I felt like I did not have a lot of time to set aside to adore Christ as I wanted to, because I was finishing up at seminary and was busy just like everyone else is this time of year. When I was rushing around, I prayed breath prayers. Have you ever tried it? They can be small and simple, or even a word that helps keep your spirit focused on the Lord all day. Sometimes I would say words that magnify Him, or even think about adoring Him. Other times, I would insert prayer throughout my day, like "Praise you Father, for sending Your Son to us." Simple, but they really helped me, and you can personalize it to how God is working in your heart.

I feel a little guilty for the time I have not taken away to pray and read. I have definitely let that slip lately, and can feel it. God has been gracious to continue working in my heart, even giving me unexpected moments of grace at the airport where I least expected to find it! People were going out of their way to be nice to each other, and there was a sense of comraderie while everyone was traveling for the holidays. I definitely saw some people who were not this way too, but this was the overall feeling from my trip to Montana, which surprised me! I was praising God to find grace from all kinds of people, because that reflect Him and His heart for the world!

The Christmas Story. This morning my family and I read the story of Jesus' birth in the first few chapters of Luke, and I was struck by Elizabeth's reaction to Mary's visit. The Holy Spirit fills her, and John the Baptist leaps in her womb. Then she asked why she was so favored that the mother of her Lord would come to her? She had such humility and awe at the thought of Christ coming to her. I want to try to capture this attitude today, cultivating awe within me that God came near to us to save the world.

I pray your Christmas is full of adoration of our precious and great Lord! Thank you for the friendship, love, and grace you all show me.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Prayer to the Trinity

Oh Holy Father,
light this place with Your presence
Seek out your children in our separateness,
and restore us in community.

You gave us the way,
there is no other.

Oh Jesus,
may Your concern for purity
leak into our bones.

May the essence of the cross
and the freedom found there

disturb us

and make us whole.

Oh Holy Spirit,
draw us to the divine Oneness

Awaken us to Christian celebration
in a lonely land.

Alight us with the beauty of God's stimulating glory.

Oh dancing Trinity,
we open ourselves to Your unity.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Why the Colorful Coat?

Have you ever tried to start a blog? I felt so much pressure to choose a good title, one that perfectly represents all that I am in God. Once my titles kept getting rejected because someone else took my perfect representation, I decided on The Colorful Coat.

Why? My reasons do not go that deep.

First, I like color. A lot. Color brings me great happiness.

Second, I have a Biblical crush on Joseph. The Bible says he was well-built, and handsome, and we all know the man had good character. Check.

So perhaps I have found the most perfect title for my blog: one that represents my quirkiness and my hope to bring color and light to the world. Jesus was really good at that when he came, bringing hope to sinners. I desire to be a shining light as well (Phil. 2:15), so I hope this blog will show who He made me to be and allow me to encourage others!

Surrender Prayer

Lord help us to surrender,
we are asking for this.

You are the way, the truth, and the light,
and we long for Your embrace.

We knock, that you might
open the door to freedom.

We ask, desperately yearning
for transformation.

We seek, to find the place
of Your desire.

Purify our hearts, oh Lord,
to receive this love,
and then to give it away.

May we walk in light of Your desires
and do good to those You give us.

Our knees bow before You,
in adoration and asking -
for surrender -
that the light of your presence may be known on earth.